When our fellowship began, its initial members voted to make all approved Alcoholics Anonymous literature, approved SPAA literature. So, for our primary text, we rely on the Big Book of AA. Our fellowship is still young, but we are now beginning to produce our own materials. As new literature is written and approved by SPAA Intergroup, we will post it here.
On this page:
What is Edging?
SPAA Pamphlet
Tips for Newcomers
Newcomer Reading
Staying Away from the First Edge
How to Do a Written First Step
What is Edging?
SPAA defines sobriety as: No sex with one’s self (masturbation), no sex outside of a committed relationship and no viewing of pornography.
Our experience has shown us that certain behaviors — though outside SPAA’s sobriety definition — can still give us a “hit” of our drug and often lead to the loss of our sobriety. We call these behaviors “edging.”
While engaged in edging, we once again experience our great obsession — believing the lie that we can control and enjoy these secret behaviors. Therefore, as with our acting out behaviors, we asked our Higher Power to remove our desire to edge.
Edging activities vary widely from member to member, but many of us identify with the following:
- Perusing social media apps and websites looking for arousing, non-pornographic images and videos (sometimes through the use of secret accounts).
- Pressuring, nagging, guilting, or shaming our committed partner into sexual activity.
- Looking in public spaces for people we find attractive, then fantasizing about them, staring at their body parts or following them around. We’ve done this on foot and from our cars.
- Flirting with others when we are already in a committed relationship — either by paying them compliments, teasing, having inappropriate/intimate conversations or “turning on the charm.”
- Creating a list of “backup” partners in case things don’t work out in our current relationship.
- Using non-pornographic media with the goal of arousal. This could include: watching movies/TV shows or sexually suggestive videos; listening to arousing audio; or reading erotic literature.
- Conveniently forgetting to mention we are already in a committed relationship when meeting a new person we find attractive.
- Fantasizing — often by replaying our past sexual escapades or pornographic images we’ve seen (sometimes while having sex with our committed partner).
- Engaging in euphoric recall. That is, to relive our past sexual experiences for the purpose of arousal while overlooking the negative consequences of those experiences.
- Driving by known acting out locations.
If you engage in any edging activities not on this list, include it in your edging definition. Discuss your edging behaviors with your sponsor — or an experienced, sober member if you do not yet have a sponsor. To stay sober, we have found that we must stop keeping secrets about all edging behaviors.
We offer this information to the newcomer so that they may learn from our experience, receive our strength, and gain hope.
SPAA Pamphlet
Am I a Sex and Porn Addict?
Have you found yourself preoccupied with sexual thoughts? Have you spent too much time online for sexual purposes? Hidden some of your sexual behaviors from others? Attempted to stop sexual activities, such as viewing pornography, and failed? Hurt or neglected yourself or others because of your sexual behavior? Have you ever felt bad about your sexual behavior? If you responded yes to any of these questions, you may be a sex and porn addict.
Our Problem
Our problem behaviors include edging, viewing pornography, masturbation, serial affairs, and sexual encounters outside of a committed relationship. We see that these behaviors hurt us and others, and that our obsession with sex and porn underlies these behaviors.
The Solution
SPAA offers a practical solution to our compulsive sexual behavior: the 12 Steps and 12 Traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous. In other words, our program adopts many of the same methods that have helped millions of alcoholics find sobriety.
SPAA’s Twelve Steps are a group of principles that are spiritual in their nature. If practiced as a way of life, they can expel the obsession to edge and to act out sexually. This enables the addict to live happily and usefully whole. (Adapted from pg. 15 of AA’s Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions.
Who We Are
Sex and Porn Addicts Anonymous is an international, inclusive fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength, and hope with each other that they may recover from sex and porn addiction.
Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help others to achieve sexual sobriety.
What Happens at Our Meetings?
We sex and porn addicts share our stories—speaking honestly about our struggles with addiction and the steps we have taken to find recovery. These stories are reports of actions that worked for us, rather than rules not to be broken. We find that our meetings are a reservoir of collective wisdom, based on decades of personal experience. Together, we stand on each other’s shoulders to achieve victory over sex and porn addiction.
Who Can Attend SPAA Meetings?
Anyone who says they are a sex and porn addict can attend meetings. The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop acting out sexually and stop viewing pornography.
How Can SPAA Help Me with My Problem?
We guide you through the recovery process with the entire fellowship watching your back. We have regularly scheduled in-person meetings in various locations and conduct international Zoom meetings seven days a week. From sharing our individual stories, we see that we all suffer from the same problem in our own ways. We understand your problem. Here, we receive the benefits of experience and the tools of recovery from fellow members of the program, and we pass along that knowledge and our own experience to newcomers. Thus, we offer the hope of recovery and the strength that comes from knowing we are not alone. You are not alone.
Tips for Newcomers
Welcome! You may have just attended your first meeting, or you might have several months in our group already. We hope these tips will point you in the right direction. By no means are you required to take any of these actions. They are simply methods we tried that helped us find recovery. As we like to say, “Take what you’d like and leave the rest.”
Dry Out
“Drying out” might mean different things to different people. In general, it’s the process of weaning our bodies and minds off the habitual need to sexually act out. For some, it might mean a temporary no-dating period or abstinence within a marriage or committed relationship. For others, it might mean avoiding those people, places, and situations that might trigger us to act out. Internet porn blockers, such as Net Nanny, Covenant Eyes, and accountability software like Accountable2You might also help. Drying out does not have to last forever, but it may feel that way. It is something done once and never again, unless there is a relapse. This process allows us to pump the brakes on our compulsive sexual behavior and redirect our energy to our spiritual recovery. We’ve found that we cannot gain any significant sobriety or begin our spiritual recovery until we “dry out.”
Go to Meetings
Meetings help us stay connected to our community and to a power greater than ourselves. Our addiction can isolate us, in some cases, literally locking ourselves in a room with porn; meetings break the isolation. Meetings remind us that we are not alone—that there is always hope. Our community provides us with access to countless members who speak our language, share our struggle, and together, seek solutions to our common problem. Talk to members with years of sobriety and strong recovery. Talk to other newcomers. Go to ninety meetings in ninety days. Share your story with the group, but also listen—be open to solutions and support your fellows.
Make and Take Phone Calls
Grab a phone list at a meeting then start to call members. Aim for at least three program calls per day. Share about your day and how you feel. Ask about their day and how their recovery is going. We only found recovery once we accepted that we don’t have all the answers. As with meetings, calls help us remain connected with our program and help us learn from fellow members.
Write Gratitude Lists
All too often, many of us nurse our resentments, self-pity, and fears. Our tendency to hold onto these character defects has led us countless times to escape into sexual fantasy and to the loss of our sobriety. We find that the solution is gratitude. Each morning on awakening, write down ten things for which you are grateful.
Get a Sponsor
If you’re like us, you likely tried to stop acting out on your own—and failed miserably. Sure, we cobbled together a few weeks or months. But long-lasting recovery? For that, we needed to accept that we were powerless over our addiction and ask for help from another human being: the fellowship and our sponsors. A sponsor is your guide on the climb to recovery. They can’t carry you there, but can point you in the right direction. At a meeting, speak to the secretary or the sponsor coordinator about finding the right sponsor for you. Call your sponsor every day. Listen to their advice. Allow them to guide you through all 12 steps, so that you will gain recovery. Sponsors may not be available to return your call. If you need to speak to someone, call another member or text your sponsor about your urgent issue.
Pray
The second step asks you to identify your Higher Power. In the process, many of us felt like we were grasping at smoke at first. But over time, we developed an understanding and connection to our higher power through daily prayer—specifically our program’s Third Step Prayer (p.63), Seventh Step Prayer (p. 76), and “On Awakening” (p. 86 – 88). If you have an urge to act out, or just woke up, you might find it helpful to pray. Whenever sexual craving rears up, and you want to retreat from reality, try these prayers:
God, I can’t handle that thought. I’ll give it to you.
God, please give that person I’m objectifying, their health, prosperity, and peace.
God, thank you for this program so I don’t have to destroy my life with this drug.
Be of Service
A poet once said, “No man can sincerely try to help another without helping himself.” Don’t ask what you can get from the group; ask what you can bring to it. Volunteer for service positions at meetings. If asked to serve, say yes. Introduce yourself to newcomers and check in with your fellow members. Be of service at home. Many of us neglected our responsibilities at home because we were busy acting out. Do the dishes, clean the house, scoop the cat box, take the garbage out. Think of other acts of service that might be meaningful to those you care about and your community. Do something kind or thoughtful for another without “getting caught” and with no expectations.
Develop a Daily Ritual
With your sponsor, develop a daily ritual, preferably first thing in the morning. It can be different for each person, but we suggest beginning and ending each day with a prayer and reading The Big Book (try pages 86 through 88). Prioritize moments in your day for self-care—including exercise, healthy food, good sleep, having fun with friends and family, meditation, and gratitude lists. And, of course, attending meetings and making and taking outreach calls with fellow members. On occasion, we told ourselves we were too busy with our jobs or family to keep up with the Program. But it’s been said that when we’re busy, we don’t have enough time not to pray. Our daily ritual prevents us from acting out and wasting time and energy we could devote to productive and useful activities. Our daily routines lay the foundation for increased stability in our lives, better discernment, and spiritual growth.
Read the Literature
We’re fortunate that we can turn to AA’s conference-approved literature for insight and guidance. We suggest reading Alcoholics Anonymous, also known as “The Big Book”—an indispensable guide to recovery written in 1939 that has helped millions of alcoholics find a new life. Also, check out AA’s Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions—a book that dives deep into the basic principles of the twelve steps and twelve traditions of AA, which are the cornerstones of our program. Both books sold on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and available for free at most local libraries.
Slogans
Here are a few you might hear:
Easy does it.
One day at a time.
Keep coming back.
It works if you work it.
Remember, take responsibility for everything in your life. We tend toward self-pity and resentment—often blaming others for our setbacks. But once we stopped living in the problem, and began living in the solution, the problem went away. We hope these tips will point you the right way. They certainly worked for us. Together, we can do this.
Newcomer Reading
Today, we’re lucky to have a newcomer(s) joining us. Welcome! There’s nothing you need to do. You’ll have a chance to share during our meeting if you choose to, but no pressure. Now, we’ll share with you a little about how we got here.
None of us thought: My life is perfect, so I’d better check into Sex and Porn Addicts Anonymous. Some had to be dragged here—figuratively and literally. Others knew they had a problem with their sexual behavior which they wanted to stop but couldn’t. Not on their own. Today, these same members can proudly claim years of sobriety.
We stopped using pornography and sexually acting out. How did we do it? After all, we struggled to stop acting out for years. We wondered: What was wrong with us? Why didn’t we possess the willpower to overcome this awful compulsion? At times, we thought there wasn’t hope. That we would take our secrets to our graves. A solution was beyond our grasp.
To take the first step toward recovery, we had to admit that we couldn’t control our compulsive sexual behavior. We all needed to accept that we were sex and porn addicts. In the process, we learned a very simple principle—the principle of “we.” Meaning we are not alone. That’s how we arrived at SPAA’s door, and how we found a home in SPAA.
Regardless of our race, gender or sexual identity, we learned that the members of this program share a common thread. They understand our problem—from firsthand experience. In other words, they speak our language. They taught us that porn wasn’t the problem. It was the solution—a method to cope with pain and escape reality. Today, we welcome the range of experiences that life offers—its joys and heartaches. We connect with people rather than isolate ourselves with porn and other forms of sexual addiction. We cleared the fog of addiction from our thinking, and in doing so, found a path toward spiritual meaning and fulfillment. We gained self-respect and the respect of our partners, families, and members of this group. These fellow members proved to us that we were not alone. You are not alone!
Staying Away from the First Edge
Expressions commonly heard in SPAA include: “If you don’t edge, you won’t act out,” and, “One video is too many and twenty aren’t enough.”
AA members have a saying that’s just as true for many of us Sex and Porn Addicts: “If you hang around the barbershop long enough, sooner or later, you’re going to get your hair cut.” Many of us tell ourselves that we can control our edging behavior. Sure, we say, we can stare at that attractive person on the street; one sexual fantasy in bed at night; one sex scene in an R-rated movie; one social media photo; and so on.
Maybe we got away with one look, now and then, for a while. We tried to limit ourselves to the occasional edge like an alcoholic pushing away a second drink. But the time always came when we wanted that second drink. And because the first edge didn’t do serious damage, we thought a second couldn’t hurt. We found ourselves edging more and more, hungry for another high — a longer look, a racier photo, a more explicit video, until we reached the end of the road and broke our sobriety.
Some of us repeated this cycle, again and again, despite promises to ourselves and our partners that we’d stop for good this time. Anything could trigger our desire to edge. A breakup, losing a job, or even some great news, like getting a first date — or no reason at all. The causes might’ve been different but the result was always the same. We couldn’t stop edging even if we wanted to.
Fortunately, our experience brought us to one simple solution: if we don’t give in to the first edge, we’ll never act out.
Sounds almost too simple, doesn’t it? We shake our heads now when we think about the effort we wasted trying to resist the second “drink.” The mental backflips we performed to convince ourselves that another edge wouldn’t hurt, the shame and demoralization when we were proven wrong — it was all so draining.
Don’t give in to that first edge. Simple, but not easy. The bar is there in our mind, open for business, ready to serve up a sexual image or a fantasy for us to drink in at any time. Drying out isn’t a cakewalk, either. After all, we relied on edging for years to numb our pain, soothe our wounds, and escape from reality.
During the difficult “drying out” phase, we had to face sober living. Sometimes we felt the sun on us like never before; other times, we struggled to get out of bed. We paced, pulled our hair, and wrestled with anxiety. Resentments reared up from the past. Some of us felt we couldn’t make it through another day without a bit of relief brought by edging. We feared we might be missing out on something if we didn’t edge, didn’t grab that extra look. Just one, of course.
So, how do we avoid edging? First, we stop fighting it, because our experience has taught us that we are just as powerless over edging as we were over sex and pornography. Fighting it doesn’t work for us. Instead, we admit our powerlessness over edging and ask our higher power to take it from us.
We nip the problem in the bud by immediately picking up the tools of the program when we feel the desire to edge. We pray to our higher power, call a fellow member, attend a meeting, work our Steps, or go somewhere we can’t act out. Each time we choose a contrary action, it’s easier the next time to give our desire to edge up to our higher power. It becomes our way of life.
We found that one day of edging sobriety leads to another. The more edging sobriety we have, the less we feel the desire to edge. Meaning we can now connect with our loved ones and embrace reality. We grocery shop without giving ourselves whiplash from staring at attractive shoppers. We fall asleep without fantasies keeping us awake. We breathe more freely and think more clearly and give ourselves a chance to live our best lives… if we only choose not to edge. Hang in there, and don’t give in to the first edge. Many of us now have months and years of edging sobriety. We are all amazed that our higher power is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
How to Do a Written First Step
In SPAA, a member may choose to read their written First Step at a meeting. This document is a guide for the interested member.